This is for you,

I'm not giving up on us. I'll talk to you very soon, kind of nervous and scare, but I'll try. I've missed you so much, maybe all the bad feelings were gone. Not fair to you, I know. Terribly sorry. I really cannot let go but I don't know how to tell you. Will you feel weird and angry at me for walking out at the worst moment? Can bring back the same joy? It seems to you, I'm better off without you, but no one would feel that way if they were me. No one. Wish you joy. I ran off after that because I feel weird but not now, really.

From me.